I have left this blog since I created it way back in 2009. As far as I can remember, I put up this blog after fighting big time with my then fiance now husband, about me being dreamless and unrealistic. I was out of track that time because of the issues I had with myself. I didn't know where and how my life should go.
He asked me to list down all the activities that I like and wish to do, the places where I like and wish to go, the things that I like and wish to buy. Then from one list, I should group them into two---the attainable and the non-attainable. The attainable ones, I must then make a plan on how to achieve them, while the non-attainable, set aside. I don't know what happened next, but until now, I think I'm still struggling to complete all the steps and finally find my way.
These past few days, I'm getting distracted by some questions running on my mind. Where am I going to? How long can I stay in this not-so-friendly but typical Singapore work environment? How long can I stay in this field that I chose about three years ago, not because this is what I wanted to do, but because among all the other fields that I can get along with, it is the most financially rewarding? What is making me stay here?
I'm also having this homesickness attacks at work. I wrote an article about my previous company, and while thinking where to post it, I passed by this blog.
I'm also having this homesickness attacks at work. I wrote an article about my previous company, and while thinking where to post it, I passed by this blog.
There were only 3 draft posts in this blog, two are empty. I was surprised to see the third and only post with something in it, because it is actually a list of my to-do's, to-have's, etc. for the next five years. Swak!
I went through the list again and realized that from 2009 to 2012, it's either I have already done or am already working on the items. Wow, in barely 3 years, I'm able to do and get what I thought was very hard! That just uplifted my spirit. It made me feel thankful. Made me proud. Made me humble as well. I didn't know I've come this far. And so I write this post.
We cannot keep ourselves from getting distracted and losing direction when we feel very tired and stressed out. It is a part of life. I think having a list like this, just as what inspirational/self-help writers and speakers always preach on, is indeed helpful to put us back on track. It's a good vitamin for our well-being to see that our life moves at least a step over time.
By the way, here's the list portion of my draft post:
Here are the things that I plan to do, to have, and to achieve in the next five years.
1. Marry the only man I truly love. - done
2. Have a baby at least a year and a half after marrying the man in number 1. - working
3. Live with the man in number 1. - done
4. Work where the man in number 1 and I live. - done
5. Help my siblings with their studies. - working
6. Be active in church with the man in number 1. - working
7. Start a regular evening prayer with the man in number 1 and the baby in number 2.
8. Learn how to bake.
9. Go into dancing.
10. Enroll myself in a piano school.
11. Start investing on a house and lot. - done
12. Have a schedule for painting sessions. - working
13. Buy any branded item for myself. - done
14. Look for up to three institutions or NGOs to help.
